Another weekend has come and gone, but this one felt a bit more productive than normal, well, this whole week has honestly.
I’m really pushing myself to get a good amount of work done, photography and artwork, so I can finally get my shop going! I want and need to pursue my passions, and creative outlets are what make me happy, it’s about time I took that step forward and made money from it. Currently I have pieces listed on Society6, RedBubble, Spring, and Spoonflower, not a lot, but it’s a start, I pushed myself to do it. I’m hoping to pick one or two and dedicate a good amount of time to getting things really moving on them. Once I have a good enough grasp of things, I might bring the prints and merchandise in-house, but only if I’m making enough I could afford it. This is a really big step for me, even if it seems small, it’s a big one for me. You can checkout each site and see if there’s something that speaks to you, though currently there aren’t many pieces, it will grow with time!
I’m also going to be posting up photography work so prints can be purchased of my photography work as well, I just need to really dedicate some time to sifting through photos and processing them for prints. I’ve never really seen my work on a reproduced media, so I’m nervous, I want them to look really good! I feel like getting my work up and out there can help get commissions going, and hopefully, things really blow up with it and I can just focus on creative work full-time. That’s the dream anyway, and you’ll never achieve them if you don’t take those steps forward to reach for them.
It’s funny how depression can just throw a wrench in life.. shortly after writing this, I was hit with a real bad wave of it, it had been knocking the past two weeks and while I was able to push it back, it broke through. Lost all motivation, cried, tried my best to take care of my kids but felt so damn sad and so damn alone.. I even ended up just going to bed at 8:30pm, house still a mess, just said forget it, went to bed.. It’s Monday morning now, woke up at 4am, got the house picked up, made breakfast, showered and got ready for work. Got the kids up and ready and out the door by about 6:45 and dropped off a quarter after 7. Made it to work a little early and I’m still fighting to stay at work, still sad, still want to cry, but here trying to be useful to my team.
Later days.
PS, Sorry this post is so bare, I was thinking of putting up art and photos I’ve processed, links to the shops I have stuff up at, that sort of thing, but now I’m just trying to get myself to even post anything.
“When you try your best, but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above, or down below
When you’re too in love to let it go
But if you never try, you’ll never know
Just what you’re worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face, and I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face, and I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you”