Cigarette Daydreams

I’ve always been a person of various interests, I have a bad habit of picking up a new interest, learning all I can and pursing it, then finding something else of interest and dropping everything to learn about that. I should say, it’s not all bad, it’s allowed me the freedom to pick up jobs with relative ease, as well as save myself money learning a skill versus paying someone to do something for me. It’s how I learned to work on electronics, cars, photography equipment, sewing, etc.

I guess you could say I’m “a man of many hats,” or a “A jack of all trades, master of none,” though as the quote goes, “often times it’s better than being a master of one;” which brings me to a new job I recently picked up, accidently haha. I will be a Project Coordinator for Plant Ops at the hospital; paperwork and organization heavy, but it’s only part time and will pad my pocket with a little breathing room. This will be in addition to my full-time job as a Biomedical Engineer Tech II.. I’m not sure if it’s the best idea ever, but they could use the help and I could use the money. It would require coming in an hour early and staying a few hours late, we’ll see how it goes.

I figure on days I have my daughter, I’ll use after she goes to bed to work on my personal projects; the website, processing my art and photography, sewing, etc. I know this way of life isn’t sustainable, but I need to make a difference, I need to push to achieve the things I want to, that means working a little extra, getting the money I need to move forward with projects, sacrificing a little to make a difference in the long run. In addition to pushing myself, I need to optimize my time as best I can. Any ideas? Haha what am I getting myself into…

In other news, not so great news, my dad called me Saturday night, I could tell he’d been crying; my uncle isn’t doing too well with his health, the baby of my dad’s siblings, my uncle that has always been the family man, trying to keep us in touch even after we moved to Utah. I remember him giving me a business card when I was younger, telling me to email or call if I ever needed to talk, I felt a twinge of sadness when he did that, it felt like I could see how sad he was to see us leaving, to have his big brother move so far away. I know my dad blames himself for my uncle not doing well, he feels like he should have been there to push him to a healthier lifestyle, like maybe if we’d been in California still, my uncle would be in better shape. My dad holds a lot on his shoulders, and I see a lot of my own struggles in him, it’s probably where I picked up a lot of my behaviours.

As far as site news goes, I’ve added a bit more photography and artwork to the site, in the middle of processing some art right now, so it’s getting there, inch by inch. I don’t even know if my work will sell, but I want to do this, I want to be proud of my art and photography, and to do that, I need to stop being shy about showing it off. I need to pursue opportunities for commissions and photoshoots. I need to grow, in all ways positive. Please feel free to reach out on either the site email at ccadventureabroad@gmail.com or on the Facebook page to inquire about prints or commissions!

Later days.

You can drive all night
Looking for the answers in the pouring rain
You wanna find peace of mind
Looking for the answer

If we could find a reason, a reason to change
Looking for the answer
If you could find a reason, a reason to stay
Standing in the pouring rain

Do do do do do do
— Cigarette Daydreams - Cage The Elephant