Life is anything but boring these days… Can’t remember the last time I could just sit down and relax. As life goes, things are ramping up quite a bit! I start working with Plant Operations tomorrow, on top of my job as Biomed. I’m still doing what I can to investigate into my cousin’s death, as well as doing what I can to get the 3000GT up and running, might swing up north after work today to get some time in with it. Jill is out of the hospital, appendicitis, but not very mobile and can’t lift anything more than 10lbs, so I’ve had our daughter a lot the past week, and week before that when the funeral and all that was going on. My daughter just turned 1 and that was a strange feeling, with Jill being stuck in the hospital and it just being the two of us for her birthday. Jill suggested I get her a cupcake for her birthday, so we did that, we figure we’ll really celebrate her birthday when things calm down a bit in the next week or two. I got to visit Paul on Sunday, and that was nice, always forget how much I love being up at that house, just feels me with a sense of peace driving up that long driveway, seeing the angular points of the big white house, the view from the main level.. I wish I could be up that way to help Paul more, his Parkinson’s is getting really bad..
I am at about 55% on my PMs for the month, with only days left to get the other half finished, I get to start learning how to run Plant Ops stuff. I still have to finish unpacking at my house, only been there almost two months now and still have boxes everywhere. I finally did the oil change on my car yesterday, so hey, little victories. I still need to go through photos and get more content on the site, as well as get the parts for the Large Format Printer. Jill and I are going to go to counseling to see if there’s any way for reconciliation, we need to exhaust all the options of making it work before giving up, and that’s what I need to remind myself, I give up on us so quickly.. I attribute that to the way my life has been for so long, being on my own, a revolving door of people in and out of my life, unable to make lasting connections to others. So many moving parts, so many spinning plates, balancing on their sticks… I feel exhausted, rundown, just old… but I’m ok, I’ll be ok, I have to be ok. Things are progressing, all at once, some more than others, but they’re progressing, and that’s what matters.
Let’s see, in other news, what is there to say… Hmm… I don’t know, I guess there really isn’t much more to say, everyday has been busy, but I’m keeping my head above water as best I can, and I’m going to get through this, I have to get through this.
Later days.
“And I’m wasted
You can taste it
Don’t look at me that way
’Cause I’ll be hanging from a rope
I will haunt you like a ghost
If my woman was a fire
She’d burn out before I wake
And be replaced by pints of whiskey
Cigarettes, and outer space
Then somebody moves
And everything you thought you had has gone to shit
Well, we’ve got a lot
Don’t ever forget that”