Well this was a fun weekend that just passed! It was my daughter’s 2nd birthday!
Most of the week was spent trying to get my house to feel more, I don’t know, lived in vs a place I go to drop off my stuff and sleep before heading back out into the world. Needless to say there are still lots of things to unpack and put away and setup, but Jill and I managed to get it ready for the party. We both invited friends and family to come, and it felt like it went really fast considering I was grilling the whole time and running around doing this or that, didn’t get much time to socialize with anyone, but it looked like everyone was having a good time. It was definitely bittersweet, being able to celebrate our daughter’s birthday but not being together, surrounded by friends and family we’ve grown to know over the past few years.. We kept it about our daughter though and focused on enjoying that, and I guess that’s what it means to co-parent. It’s Thursday now and my house is still a mess, but I’ll get things picked up today, I’ve just been too tired and worn out feeling, so I haven’t accomplished much around the house.
That was Sunday, the 20th, it was a really good time..
This following weekend we all went to lunch for my dad’s birthday, the 27th, Jill was able to join us between her busy weekend, so that was really nice of her. Things have been kind of worrisome with my dad, he had his doctor’s appointment and unfortunately they aren’t seeing much improvement from his heart, it’s only working at 20%, so he has another appointment to see if he’s going to need a defibrillator… He of course just made light of it, celebrated his birthday and said he’s on borrowed time anyway. Between my dad’s condition not improving and things with Jill, it was a really tough week.. Letting go is hard, saying goodbye to people still alive is not a fun experience, and that can be said for both my dad and Jill, not going to lie, I’ve broken down over all of it a few times this week.
It’s March 2nd now.
Life has been tough, but it reminds me to enjoy what I can get and try not to let circumstances color the situation in a way that I can’t mindfully enjoy the good things that are happening. I don’t get to be at Jill’s birthday dinner tomorrow, so we’re celebrating tonight, April and Cory will join us and we’ll have our kids, so it’ll still be a nice dinner.
Later days.
“You should go if you want to
Yeah go if you want to
I’ll be alright, be alright
Well I’ve made so many messes
And this love as grow so restless
You would like enough but just
I won’t let you go the mess
I’ll be alright
I’ll be alright
I’m so sad lonely that is offer me to see
Reality from what I dream and no one believes me
No not a single thing
My pain is wasting and I feel like I’ll explode
You’re looking glammy and below this room wasn’t made for you
She’s go for someone new”