Today, or rather tonight, I'll be ordering business cards, releasing this website to the public, and maybe getting a YouTube channel going, it could be a pretty productive night..
Earlier this week, I made friends with a local artist, they were at a Pintrest Convention, selling their artwork. I have a better idea of what I need to do in order to get prints made while I'm away, doing artwork.. It's strange how things are working out, and how others are falling apart, but it's for the best maybe.
Hard to not focus on pain in leaving, pain in the past, in things ending with Her, in all the endings that have happened.. I need to though, I need this, as much as I want it, to get away from this place, just see what else life has to offer, more than what it's offered so far. I can't wait to see what awaits me, the people I'll meet.
As hard as life is, as hard as life can be, I'll keep trying, I'll keep going.. A friend asked me, if this is going to be such a hard trip, why are you doing it? I said: "A few reasons. To keep a promise to my mom, even if she's gone. For my brother, whom I am the splitting image, killed before he could really live life. For myself, to follow my dreams of seeing more than this fishbowl life."
“At the movies
Eyes iced over
Walking sideways
Through them gutters
And you realize that the floor
Sticks to your feet like history
Well don’t you look at me
Like life don’t hold you anymore mystery”